Feeling today

 Today was not a great day for me, my family is going though some stuff and I dont like to see my mom stressing or down. I just been feeling that I just cant relate with my friends anymore. And I just dont know where to start on saving money for cali. or study for my driving stuff. I been happy and strong and thankful for everything I have and im trying my hardest today to stay positive and keep my head up for my family but I just been down today. So I pray that my night is better for me and my family and so that my baby sister feels better :) I love seeing my family happy and stress free. So I pray for my aunt and uncal and my mom, me, shannon (my sister) and brian. That we all find happiness and not to worry about what people say or think. :)

Prayer

I pray for my aunt and my uncal, they goin thou some stuff with money and so is my family. I just want to pray that the storm will be over soon so that we can better ourself more, no more worrying or stressing about money or anything. help us to be strong Lord, and to stick with each other. I claim happiness :)

SISTER LOVE

Hahha... what to say about my sister... We love to be down each other throat lol. Nah but theres nothing i wouldnt do for this girl i love her sooo much and im going to miss her soo much!! Just to have someone to play fight with and just to make me laugh when all I want to do is stay upset lol. I going to miss having her around me and just to talk when we really need each other. When we are around each other all we do is fight but when i go my way and she goes her's we will miss each other dearly, and cry for each other lol. But i will be on the phone with her everyday i just kno i will cant wait though.. :))) LOVE YOU SIS!!!

Jazmine Sullivan - Dream Big

Im dreaming big going to California! Thats one of my dreams :)) cant wait! claming and want stop ;))

Keri Hilson - Fearless

im in love with this song. but in not talkin about a boy im talkin about not being a fraid of being me and doin what i love to do and going where i love :)

Getting Focused

The way I get focus is by praying daily and reading the word. I try to read every morning before i do anything else and read in the afternoons after work and right before I go to bed. Im starting to put God first in everythig I say and do, I try my hardest to do that now. I also try to start my day positive by saying today is going to be an great day, speak it in to reality. Im now learning to lay down my excuses, I cant, I won't, or I dont know how, and do what I can do to serve the Lord. God can give me what I dont have. All I need to do is be willing to do it.

CALIFORNIA =D

Ever since I went to California in 2003 I LOVED it lol. I just thought I would have lots of stuff to do whenever I would get bored. Now im 20 years old and I just don't feel that Virginia is the place for me anymore. I feel like a little kid still that's to short to reach her goals. I pray that when (Not If) when I go and find my school and a place to live I will love every min. and feel great about my choose. I pray that I will not be any trouble to my aunt Robyn and uncal Marc. I pray that I will become more of an independent woman as I prepar for this move. :) I AM CLAMING this in the name of JESUS. Aman. I am goin in the summer of 2011 and cant wait :). I will missss my mom and them so very much but I will not sit in saddness no more. I am very happy with the choose that I have made, and that choose is to move there :)))

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!! :)

 Happy New Years everyone! :) i started my new years right by thankin the Lord for letting me and my fam[ily] see another year. I was not feeling well today but i didnt let that stop me from celebrating the new year :) This is my and my fam[ily] year to better our lifes and selfs and im soooo happy and ready for it. To become closer with God and with our love ones :) to see more of our fam[ily] this year and enjoy one another. So i cant wait to see what this year brings. I pray yall have a safe night and a bless year love.